Ready for the Release

Unsettled is the best word for it. I am sitting at a cafe in Muscat, the same cafe where I brought myself to the decision to move on, to once again begin living my life through the guidance of my Soul... contemplating. Contemplating my search for understanding here, a search that at times was fruitful, and other times futile. Professionally, so much made sense in Oman. The regional development, embodied by the hyper-development of Dubai... The professional possibilities for AIESEC, and the sensible opportunities that it opens up for the students here... My personal and profound dedication to see to it that I did everything in my power for its success... The practical experience of developing a chapter of an international organization, and figuring intrinsically into its global leadership... What did not make sense, never truly so, was what my Soul could see.

I have struggled to characterize what I have been experiencing inside for some time now. Is it good, is it bad? Did I fail, did I succeed? It all depends on what the terms are.

Overall, I can already say that I am happy I made the decision to come to Oman. I hope to start to see the rewards coming gradually. I am equally happy to have made the decision to move on to other endeavors. What I am about to release to is an experience that is even more unknown to me. What destinations will it bring me to - not physically, but mindfully, spiritually... Soulfully.

My decision to go with Amie to India to study yoga for six weeks makes no logical sense when I look at it with my analytical mind. When I allow my Soul to guide me, it simply is... right.

Blogging Psychology - Blogchology... ?

Is it the mind that molds the heart that pulls the Soul to wonder at the present status of the state of the world?

I've removed myself from the Blogosphere as of late for the simple reason that I have been entirely too unsettled to breech the barrier of my mind swirl to come afresh with words and phrases that inspire me further on my current search.

Amie arrived and everything changed. She opened me up to help me to see the state of myself and my Soul. I was not surprised by what I saw, but I was at first to proud to admit that it was not was I wanted, but something that I had watched happen. It turns out that all of the effort and energy that my Oman experience has demanded of me almost completely removed me from taking care of myself. I didn't even have the foggiest at the time to know what that even meant, at least in this context.

So here I am again, back at a crossroads of choices. I have decided to move on from Oman with Amie, to continue our journey East to India, and delve into the depths of Soul and Self through the channels of Ayurvedic Yoga. And then on to Southeast Asia, or...

Energy is the ultimate goal. Energy and the most accurate reflection of well-being. Something Amie and I have termed Soul Entreprise... the beginnings of a company or philosophy or movement. Or perhaps something even bigger, embodied by the sense of pure Being

And so it Begins